They are not OK, I am not OK...

Yesterday when I got home, I found that my two beautiful blue baby girls had passed. I bawled so hard. Why didn't I come home sooner. Why didn't I take the supplies home yesterday. I tube fed and gave sub q fluid to 4 of them. But it was too late. Within two hours I had lost my little black and tan girl. All I have left are my four black and white boys, and even they are not doing great. I am afraid of losing more of them. I am trying my best, and there is not a whole lot more I can do. Please pray for them, and for me. I am going crazy, I can barely sleep at night, and I worry all day long. Even though I know this is how it goes sometimes, it doesn't make it any less heartbreaking.