tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34718295.post5762289472562322639..comments2023-10-18T06:16:58.609-05:00Comments on diary of a crazy person: Today's StrugglesLindsey Dueckhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05733597189365494408noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34718295.post-68278488272796396152011-10-24T12:51:19.611-05:002011-10-24T12:51:19.611-05:00Ten pregnancies where all the women just "got...Ten pregnancies where all the women just "got pregnant when they wanted to" doesn't help anyone's emotion. I can't believe the number! That's insane!!!<br />I agree. This waiting thing is SUPER hard to do. I want to "change what I do" so God will grant me my baby - the same way you want to. <br />It just plain sucks that there is no promise of when a family will happen. You're in my prayers!All in His Perfect Timinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00300978285191861049noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34718295.post-90928014903161436922011-10-23T10:53:58.543-05:002011-10-23T10:53:58.543-05:00I know we infertiles have all been there when it F...I know we infertiles have all been there when it FEELS like everyone is pregnant and when everyone literally IS pregnant. It's so hard to deal with the emotions when this is something that we've longed and prayed for. I too have had the same thoughts about God, if I would just do X maybe he would answer my prayers. But then I have to remember that nothing I do can make him love me more than he already does and I know that he does not intentionally withhold blessings from his children. Sometimes I think the lesson that we have to learn in this process is that we cannot do anything to make it happen. He is the author of life and life will be created by Him and Him alone. It sure has not been an easy lesson to learn and I feel like I still have not got it figured all out. Thank you for being open and 'real' with your emotions. You are not alone. {{HUGS}}Mrs. Hammerhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17987757347063640562noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34718295.post-20656946191866957822011-10-22T19:41:07.679-05:002011-10-22T19:41:07.679-05:00Oh, wow. I am so sorry you've been experiencin...Oh, wow. I am so sorry you've been experiencing all these awful emotions lately:( They are perfectly understandable, and I can tell you I 100% relate - at one time or another I have felt every.single.one! Especially the bit about there being a baby boom right now (it does seem to be that way!) I really think infertility can be crippling in all areas of a woman's life..I relate to all those questions you have for God from time to time regarding praying right, etc. too. I have often asked those same ones, both now and when we were trying for a baby the first time around. But - and I am certainly no Godly authority!;) - one thing I can tell you is this: there is NOTHING you can do - good or bad - to cause God to reward/withhold children from you..life is what it is, and it can often be so unfair, without reason. His blessings are sweet and arrive at just the perfect time though. Amen that His timing is always perfect! and that He does have a definite, perfect plan for your life:) It has always comforted me a bit knowing this, because it's meant I can stop driving myself crazy/overanalyzing my actions, essentially punishing myself, simply remembering God ALWAYS has plans to "prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (Jer. 29:11) Even if nothing makes sense now (and I know it personally never has for me when it comes to infertility), you can rest knowing God is working His divine goodness in your life. I'm sorry you're hurting now, though, and I wish I could be there with you and simply be a sympathetic ear. Take as much time as you need and we (your blog friends;)) all completely understand when you need to vent on here - we all need to do that and thank goodness we have this awesome place to do it! I can say without question we are all here for you as well. You are in my daily prayers, Lindsey! ((HUGS))Brittneyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16201570599775076962noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34718295.post-86802347753368272011-10-22T18:03:21.043-05:002011-10-22T18:03:21.043-05:00Awe Lindsey. I know EXACTLY how you feel.... and ...Awe Lindsey. I know EXACTLY how you feel.... and I know that friends may mean well, but they just don't get it at all, and sometimes its best then they say nothing at all except "it sucks". hoping you get your call soon... missing you on the HL boards, come back and visit, we all get it there!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com