Good Riddance 2010

I am happy to see 2010 go. I can safely say it was the worst year of my life. Not that anything majorly bad happened, but nothing life changing happened either. I feel like I didn't get anywhere in life. I feel like I am in the same spot I was a year ago when I was saying goodbye to 2009.

If I could sum up 2010 in one word, it would be struggle. I feel like I have struggled in so many areas. I struggled to get fit and get into an exercise habit, here I am and I haven't exercised in two months. We struggled financially, I went back to work full time and we cancelled our trip to BC. I sure loved working part time, it was ideal. We struggled to conceive a child, after 8 cycles of fertility drugs, I still have an empty womb and an aching heart. I struggled with my relationship with God, trying to grow closer to Him, loving Him as much as I can, trying to live a life that pleases Him. I struggled with myself, trying to figure out if the person I am is the person I want to be.

I know I am focusing on all the negative right now, but I need to mourn. 2010 was a very hard year for me. I am hoping and praying that 2011 will be dramatically different, in a good way. I am nervous about more disappointment, but excited for new possibilities.

My resolution this year is to not just sit around waiting for life to happen. I am going to make life happen. I am going to have an amazing year, and when I sit here next year and write my review of 2011, it is going to be awesome. I am going take advantage of the time Eric and I have while it is just the two of us. Going to Disneyworld is sure a great start! I leave in 14 days!! Eric leaves in 19!

Christmas Gifts I Made

I meant to take pictures of everything I made, but I have been SO busy making all this stuff it slipped my mind and then all of a sudden everything was given away already! So I will just list them off:

1. Cinnamon Sugared Almonds
2. Chocolate Covered Coffee Beans
3. Vinatarta Cookies
4. Spicy BBQ Rub
5. Jamaican Jerk Rub
6. Fruited Vinegar
7. Basil Olive Oil
8. Oregano Olive Oil
9. Toffee
10. Tree Skirt for Eloa
11. 12 Placemats for my Mom
12. Knit Toques
13. Knit Mittens
14. Knit Slippers
15. Fabric Coffee Sleeves ( like the cardboard things)
16. Oven Mitts and Pot Holders
    
17. Lemongrass Olive Oil Body Scrub
18. Cucumber Bath Salts
19. Sugar Plum Bath Salts
20. Chamomile Mint Bath Salts
21. Grape Strawberry Lip Balm with beeswax, olive oil, shea butter and vitamin E.
22. Strawberry Limeade, Mandarin Mango, and Grapefruit bath bombs
23. Green Apple Shea Butter Soap
24. Warm Vanilla Sugar Shea Butter Soap
    
25. Turkey Jerky
26. Indian Paneer Cheese with hot Chillis
27. Rye Multigrain Cracker

Wow, when I write it out in a list like that it seems like a lot of different things! No wonder my life has been completely consumed in the last month by making gifts! Pretty much every spare minute I had, I made gifts. I truly did enjoy it, and I am glad I did it.

My favorite part was probably making the bath stuff, mostly the bath bombs! So much so that I think I would like to start selling them. We need to pay for our fertility treatments/adoption some how, so why not make bath stuff in my spare time. I could sell it at local craft shows and on Etsy! We will see...

I love Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone and Happy Birthday Jesus! I hope everyone had a fantastic day and was able to enjoy time with family and friends.

I was again reminded in the last few days of how blessed I am. I have a wonderful family and they are so good to us! I always feel accepted and loved when I am with them. I couldn't ask for more!

And the best Christmas present of all?!?! The arrival of AF! Thanks for making this the merriest of merry Christmases..... NOT. But, I will not let her bring me down, this Christmas was still amazing despite the failure of Clomid #8, only one more to go and then we can finally move on. At least I can still go on the rides at Disneyword. :)

Holiday Rabies Shot

http://www.xtranormal.com/watch/8133783

This is hilarious, because it is so true.

Hi

I feel like I need to post something, but I am coming up empty! I would really love to post about all the stuff I am making for Christmas gifts, but I don't want to ruin it for anyone. I will say I am having fun and I am really glad I am doing this. I will post pictures and info AFTER I have given them all! I think making my gifts has really helped to put me in the Christmas spirit.

I haven't posted a lot about infertility lately. Mostly because I have been trying my best to keep it at the back of my mind. My friend Hillary over at Making Me Mom wrote a great post. Please check it out. I could not have written it better myself and it describes so much of my feelings of loss that are difficult to put into words. And probably even more difficult for people to understand. I hope that helps.

Learning

Sometimes I overwhelm myself with things I would like to learn to do. Here is a few things:

1. Play the piano well, and be able to read music.
2. Speak French, or any other language.
3. Edit HTML, design and some programming. I think it would be fun.
4. Crochet.
5. Make a real quilt, not a rag quilt!
6. Make soap.

But where to find the time! What kinds of things would you like to learn?