Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Going Down!!!

We fell off the P90X wagon. We were going strong for a long time, but for the last three weeks or so it has been pretty slack! But tonight we got back on. Travis wanted to try it out, so we went to the gym in town to do it. And we feel great! I am glad to get back into it!

Thankfully, God allowed me to continue to loose weight during my off times. I went shopping on Saturday, and realize that XL shirts are now a thing of the past for me and size 14 pants are in! I can't even remember the last time I could even pull a size 14 on my body, and now it fits great. My goal is to be a medium/size 8. I think that is a decent goal. But I really have no idea cause I have never been that size. The size doesn't matter THAT much. I just want to be fit and healthy! That would make me the happiest.

Motivation is the hardest part. Once you stop working out for a few days, it is really hard to get back into it!

I did my fitness theory exam a couple weeks back, I am still waiting for the mark for that. I thought it was pretty easy, but you never know. I could have bombed it. I hope not. I am excited to get more into the fitness world!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Bored and Lazy

A neat survey I found on a blog I read. Feel free to do it as well!

1. Started your own blog – A few of them
2. Slept under the stars - In the winter time... YUCK!
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity - only once, and we had to really pinch pennies for a few weeks because I didn't thin
7. Been to DisneyWorld
8. Climbed a mountain - in Switzerland!
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris - one of my favorite places ever! Hence my dogs name!
13. Watched a lightning storm
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch - Knitting and sewing!
15. Adopted a child - I wish!
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables - but not very well!
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France - twice!
20. Slept on an overnight train - on many occasions!
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch-hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill - I did this alot at a job I hated when I was younger.
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset - many beautiful ones!
31. Hit a home run - obviously you have never seen me play baseball
32. Been on a cruise - does a ferry from Greece to Italy count? Or a ferry to the Greek Islands?
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person - GORGEOUS!
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person - twice, and never again please...
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant -
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted - Do those caricatures they paint at Valleyfair count?
48. Gone deep sea fishing
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris - twice! I love the Eiffel tower!
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater
55. Been in a movie - does the ones you make in school count?
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business - I sell Partylite and Lia Sophia, so that counts!
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp - two of them, a very humbling experience
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten Caviar
72. Pieced a quilt - many of them
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been a passenger on a motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican - twice!
82. Bought a brand new car - it just turned 100,000 :( , but I LOVE having a brand new car!
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year’s Eve
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life- Does an animal count?
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Got a tattoo
94. Had a baby - NO :(
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake -
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone - I have owned and DO own one!
99. Been stung by a bee

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Waiting For Change

I am tired of waiting. I feel like my life is going no where. That I am always just sitting around waiting for something to change. I feel stuck. There are so many thing I am trying to do to change it, but nothing is working. I can try to fill my life with other activities, but it still feels like I am missing something. It is just so frustrating, and I don't understand. Why does it take so long to get in for doctors appointments and testing? Don't they understand I just want to get things going? Don't they understand that I have been waiting for 2.5 years and I don't want to wait any longer?

I used to pray for patience all the time, and I know God gives you patience by giving you situations in which to practice it, but I don't want patience anymore. I feel like I have sufficient patience now. Thanks, but no thanks. I want a baby right now. Not in 9 months. Not in a year. Right now. I just cannot wait any longer. If someone called me right this second and said come pick your baby up, I would do it. I wouldn't even take the time to hang up the phone, I would be out the door. I am ready.

But obviously God disagrees with me. He does not think I am ready, He does not think I have enough patience. He does not think the time is right.

These feeling are so hard to suppress. I know it is not my time, yet I can't help this ache in my chest and these tears in my eyes. I just want it SO BAD.

God cares little about making us comfortable. There is no growth in comfort. Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord. I will come out of this struggle a better person. More appreciative of the blessings God has given me. There are worse things in life that could be happening to me.

Monday, May 10, 2010


I really don't think it is a secret that I struggle with anger. I am a passionate person, and sometimes I feel like my feelings are amplified because of that. But I have been learning alot about anger lately.

Kind of a hard statement to take in, but it is true. When you cannot control your anger, you look like a fool. People don't really take you seriously. I used to think that it was not possible to control my temper, but slowly I have learned that I am the only one in control of my temper. I choose to be angry. It is no one's fault. No one else is to blame. It is up to me how I react to other people. I can laugh it off, I can ignore it, or I can be angry. That is MY decision.

I think we live in a world that loves to blame it's problems on other people. Everything is always someone else's fault, and you never have to take responsibility for your actions. Well, I believe that is wrong. I see far too many children being raised in this mentality. It just kills me.

I think this verse is a great reminder:
  • Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires.
Our anger gets us no where God wants us to be. I pray that you and I will always think before we react in anger. That God will bless us with a humble spirit, one that is not afraid to take resposiblity for our own actions!

Sunday, May 09, 2010

The Church

Something I heard alot about at YC was the purpose of the church. What do you think is the purpose of the church? What is the church? This is what I learned last weekend.

The church is not the building that we gather in every Sunday, but the body, the people. If the building burnt to the ground, we would still be a church.

The church exists to equip it's members to go out and benefit the world! I think that far too often we think that the church exists solely to benefit it's members. We have lots of church potlucks, church picnics, church bible studies and care groups, etc. We spend a lot of time building relationships within the church, and little time building relationships outside of the church.

That being said, if what your church is doing is not working, it needs to be changed. If your church is not growing, there is a problem. And growth does not include having children or believers that move into your area. It means that you are getting out there and sharing the love of Jesus, and new people are coming to Christ. If what you have been doing for the last 52 Sundays have not worked, what makes you think doing the exact same thing next Sunday will?

Question everything. Why do we do the things we do each and every Sunday? If you don't like something in your church, if you do not think it is working, do not just leave the church and go to a new one. Change it! I can really relate to that. Sometimes it just seems easier to leave, or stop going. But I don't think that is the right thing to do.

The weekend really challenged me!

Monday, May 03, 2010


This past weekend we took our youth to YC Manitoba at Church of the Rock. We have never been before, so we really didn't have any expectations. We had a great weekend. The conference was amazing. There was great speakers and good music. All the youth, the girls at least, seemed to really enjoy everything.

Now the challenge is to take the things we learned on the weekend, and put it into practice in our lives. That is always the hardest part. But with God, all things are possible, right?

While all the speakers were great, I went to a few workshops with Brett Ullman, and I think he was my favorite. His views are very similar to mine, and he tells it like it is without beating around the bush, which is also like me. I would love to get him out to the Interlake to do some of his talks. Especially the one on media.

I will probably share some things I learned on the weekend over my next couple posts!

I also attended Soul Sanctuary on Sunday morning with two of my youth girls. I really liked it, the worship team was great, they had a coffee/juice break in the middle of the service, and they had super comfy chairs! It was a guest speaker though, who was good, but I would have really liked to hear their pastor. I guess I will just have to go back!
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