Saturday, March 14, 2009

300 already?? And Breaktime!

Wow! I didn't even realize this would be my 300th post!!

I just wanted to say that I will be taking a break from blogging for a while. I am only going online for 1/2 hour a day for the next couple weeks, until i get some things under control. I have been wasting too much time on here. Talk to you soon!!

Saturday, March 07, 2009

No Cookies For Lindsey

Today we went out to Matheson Island for their annual fishing derby. It was a nice day for it, but still cold. I was very happy it wasn't windy.

In a moment of weakness, I bought two peanut butter cookies for 50 cents at the canteen when I was getting Eric a burger. While he was eating it, I was minding his fishing hole and decided to eat my cookies, with my mitts off. I took one bite of the cookies. MMM! They were so yummy and they had peanut butter chips in them too! I was pretty happy with the purchase, but I wasn't terrible hungry, and shouldn't have been eating cookies.

After the first bite I realized my hands were too cold to not have mitts on. So I balanced the cookies and the fishing rod on my lap while I proceeded to put my mittens, borrowed from my 8 year old brother, on. I got the left one on successfully. It was pretty tight. I jerked my right hand into the other mitt with my clumsy mitted left hand, and knocked both of my delicious, chewy, peanut buttery cookies straight into the hole. Before I could react they had both began to sink into the depths of the lake.

Goodbye cookies. It was nice to taste you.

Hello fishies, I hope you like the peanut butter cookies I bought you.

Thanks God, for keeping me on track. I should have known better.

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Two Workouts!

Today I am very thankful that God gave me the motivation to do the Turbo Jam 20 minute work out! TWICE!

The first time I did it it was hard to keep up with the moves. The second time was much easier to catch on to the moves and do them. I really really like it! Chalene is fun and full of energy and she keeps you motivated! I want to do it again right now!

Am I Even Hungry?

My struggle today is eating only when I am hungry, because, I don't know if I am hungry for sure! Am I hungry, or am I just craving something? I really have a hard time telling?

And being satisfied? How do I know what the difference is between satisfied and full? It is so hard to tell.

I am sure it will get easier, but today, I am really struggling. I just can't tell.

Hope For Change

I am very happy with how today turned out!!

Because I was training my dogs to walk properly, i walked for 1 hour and 15 minutes today! Plus I did the 15 minute training video of Turbo Jam again! WOW! I am so happy with that! I am so happy that my dogs need to be walked everyday, gives me alot of motivation.

Yesterday I read my first chaper of Thin Within. WOW! Let's be honest, I cried. So much of what they were saying, about trying diets and all these other things that have failed, about how I think about myself, about how I don't think I will ever change, all of it applied to me! I really felt like they wrote the book just for me! I have also done the second day. I really like it so far. I like that it is a lifestyle change, not a diet.

I was thinking a bit about that today, and one of the ways this method is different than anything else I have tried is because it focuses on God! No wonder nothing has worked for me before! I totally left God out of it! I have so much more hope for change now! How can I fail if God is in it with me! Pray that I will stick with it and God will give me tonnes of motivation!

I am so excited! I am excited to feel better about myself. I am excited to get healthy. I am excited to go shopping and feel good about myself, and fit normal clothing!

Clothing is always such a big pain for me. I can still shop at some normal stores, but most of the styles of clothes I like either I don't fit them or they don't suit my body type. I CAN NOT wait to go shopping and BUY BUY BUY so many clothes that I like. I feel like I am been missing out of clothing shopping for years and years. I have just bought stuff cause it fit. I can't wait to be an M!

YAY for God, who is always there for us and cares about every little desire of our hearts and wants the best for us!

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Cesar's Way Is The Best Way

A couple of days I finished reading this book, Cesar's Way. It is by Cesar Millan of Dog Whisperer fame. It was I.N.C.R.E.D.I.B.L.E! There was so much in it that I knew already, but even more that I didn't know. For example, I treat my dogs like dogs, but I didn't really know how to do that properly!
Cesar's whole philosophy is to treat your dogs like dogs, not like little humans. He says that us humans must be the leader of the pack, and not let our dogs walk all over us. Even though dogs are domesticated, they still have the same pack mentality that wild dogs do.
One of the biggest things I learned was to not give affection when my dog is doing something I don't want him to do. Like growling at another dog. It is wrong to say "Oh, it's ok, lets get you out of here." It is more important to correct that behaviour and not let the dog act like that at all. Cesar stresses exercise, dicipline, and affection, in that order. I really learnt how important it is for a dog to go on walks, not just for the exercise, but for the dog to feel like it is migrating with the pack. Just like wolves do everyday, dogs need to feel like they have migrated with their pack, searching for food or whatever.

Cesar suggests a leash that tightens when the dog pulls ( like the one I have pictured) and it is to be worn at the highest point on the neck, not one the lowest like it usually is. He also says when you are walking your dog, it should be beside you or behind you, not infront. You must lead the dog. Let me tell you, this methods works great! Example:

I was taking Paris out to train her to walk properly, when Finn ran through his electronic fence. So I put Paris inside and went to get Finn. He came to me right away and I positioned the leash around his neck just like Cesar says. I started walking him home from the neighbors and as soon as the leash tightened around his neck he flipped out. Growling and crying and stuff. I was scared cause I have never seen him be that like before! But after his little freakout he relized I was in control. I walked with him for about 15 minutes and it was UNREAL how good he was! He walked calmly and nicely beside me and was not in front pulling like a manic like usually! I was so excited! I just had to call Eric and let him know!! We have now been on 5 more walks and he has been so good everytime. It is so nice to have a dog that walks calmly beside you, and I am so shocked how easy it was!! I am now practicing with Maeve, Paris and Fleury. The Chihuahuas are doing awesome but Maeve is taking a long time to learn. Today she finally started to get it, but it will take a while for her, it is ingrained in her the most to pull, cause she is the oldest.
I am not going to explain everything in this book, you will just have to read it yourself if you are interested. I really believe EVERY person who has a dog or wants to get a dog should read this book! It is not a how-to, it is just an explaination of what his methods are and where they are coming from. It was such an eye opener. I feel like a better dog mom now that I have read it. You are doing a great injustice to your dog if you have not read this book! I really believe that!

Tuesday, March 03, 2009


Today I feel like I have SO MUCH to talk about, and I don't really know how to organize it! I have been thinking alot about change lately. Sometimes I think that some kinds of change will never happen, no matter what you try, nothing changes permanently. And I think that sucks. And I don't want it to be true.

Getting in shape is something I am always thinking about and wanting to do. My whole life I have always felt like I was overweigh and needed to loose alot of weight. Looking back now, I wasn't even that bad as a young child and teenager. Since about 16 I have been going through cycles of dieting and exersicing, and my problem did not get better. It has gotten worse. The last couple years I have tried SO MANY things, and nothing had worked or stuck. How do I get out of this cycle? I really don't know. I will go through phases when I get really excited about something and stick with it for a while, then it dies out and I go back to normal habits. I feel so incapable of change. When I look at some people that have been trying to get in shape for years and have done almost everything imaginable but nothing has worked permanetly, it makes me think I will NEVER be in shape.

Even since New Years I have been trying to only buy healthy food. It has been a challenge and I have not followed it completley, but I am still trying. I also bought Turbo Jam and did it for the first time today. It was pretty good. It doesn't seem too hard, but I could feel the burn right away with most of the moves! I really hope I can get into it.

Another thing that needed change was my relationship with God. I needed a better one. I really feel like God has been really changing my over the last years. The Bible study with Beth Moore is excellent, and I have been reading the Message alot. I love that translation! It make everything so much easier to understand and to remember! I am trying to read the whole Bible in one year, that means 3 chapters every day, and 5 chapters on Sundays. I have been doing really good. Most days I try to read 4-6 chapters to make up for the times I read 0-2.

Today I just got my Amazon book order. I LOVE LOVE LOVE! It is the best and cheapest for ordering books. One of them I got it Thin Within. It is a 30 day devotional book about changing your lifestyle to a healthier one. My friend Chantal started it a couple weeks ago, and she really likes it. I also heard through the grapevine that one of my other friends is using that book, and she looks amazing!! The great think about it is that is combines two of the things I am wanting to change in my life! I can't wait to start it!
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