Wednesday, August 31, 2011


So I slept in this morning. I didn't run. I am so disappointed in myself.

But to make up for it I went for a run this evening. It felt great to get back out there. I am planning to get up in the morning and go for a run, I am hoping to go to bed earlier tonight!

In other news, we are going to have hundreds of cherry tomatoes this year. I am almost giddy thinking of it! There are only 5 or 6 ready per day right now, so they never make it into the house uneaten. But I am excited for the time lots of them are ripe at the same time so I can take them to work for snacks! Mostly I am excited about the money it will save me. Tiny tomatoes are usually 3-6 bucks for 20-25 of them. That is pretty pricey.

We also have tonnes of cucumbers ready, and tonnes more on the way. Today we picked the small ones, I am hoping to make some pickles on the weekend. I love having lots of cucumbers. They are another thing that is expensive in  the stores, and we can eat one large english cucumber per meal.

We will also have around 50 yellow boy tomatoes. We have picked 3 of them already and they are very tasty. If I get overloaded with them I am going to try making yellow salsa! I think it would be neat.

We also ate some fresh carrots from our garden tonight. They are almost big enough to be picked!

Next year I am hoping to have a huge garden, and hopefully I will have more time to work in it. I would like beans, corn, more carrots and cucumbers, roma tomatoes, raspberries, and strawberries. 

Tuesday, August 30, 2011


Enough of being lazy. I have not exercised in weeks and I feel like junk. My body doesn't feel strong like it used to when I was running. I have been in an awful mood for weeks (but I blame that on the messed up hormones, too). I need a good, hard run.

So tomorrow morning I am going to wake up a 6 and go for one. NO MORE EXCUSES LINDSEY!!

Monday, August 29, 2011

Body By Vi 90 Day Challenge Week 4

Well the truth is I didn't get to weigh in. We were away camping, so I skipped this weigh in and measuring. It is probably for the best though with the amount of junk I ate this weekend! I am sure I probably gained! :(

This week I plan to work out more! This Sunday I will have a better update hopefully!

Sunday, August 28, 2011


This weekend we are camping with Eric's family. We had to bring Paris along because last time we left her with this dog sitter he got bit! She has actually been really good. Last time we took her camping she barked at everyone who walked by, but this time she has been relatively quiet.

Today was a fairly relaxing day. I was up bright and early at 715 so I took Paris for a walk to go to the washroom. I went back to bed for a while after that. The day was spend hiking, napping, reading, eating and sitting around the fire.

I am hoping to have another relaxing day tomorrow, but I might have to go into work for meeting.

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Saturday, August 27, 2011

Baseball Tournament

This weekend was out slo pitch tournament. We played one game tonight and five (yep, five) today. We won last night, lost, won, lost, won and then lost in the C side finals. Our team played very very well! We were not so good in the regular season, but very good today!

I really enjoyed playing with those people and getting to know them. They are a good bunch. So much so that we are probably going to have a bowling team with them this winter!!

I am exhausted! We are on our way to camp with Eric's fam for the rest of the weekend.

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Friday, August 26, 2011

Right Worked Up

I just wanted a video series on YouTube called "The Virgin Daughters". Someone sent me the link a few weeks ago, and I finally got around to watching it.

It is about the purity movement in America and how fathers are stepping up to protect the purity of their children.

It was kind of displayed in a negative light. And the comments from viewers have got me pretty worked up.

People are calling them creepy, controlling, patriarchal, freaks, and abusive! It has got me pretty worked up that I am kind of on a comment rampage.

They are making something God called men to do look seem like something bad!

God has called men to be the leader in their homes. Not to control it, but to lead it in Godly living. A wife is called to be her husband's partner, supporter and helpmate.

A lot of comments on there come from feminists. The feminist movement upsets me. Look where it has got us today: more work for less pay, being objectified for our bodies/being treated like meat, less time for families because of work commitments. Instead of being free like the feminist movement intended, we are more chained and shackled and stressed out than ever before! I am sure it has done some good things for women's rights. But right now all I can think of is the negative.

We wanted to so desperately to be treated equal to men.

But the truth is we are not equal to men, because we are SO DIFFERENT. We are wired differently. We think differently. We are built differently. We feel differently. We work differently.

Most of this probably all stems from the fact that I want nothing more than to be a housewife and stay at home mom. I wish that the expectation would never have changed. I wish that women were still expected to stay at home.

And this is coming from an educated woman who has a successful career, and owns a few of her own businesses! I also dislike when men think women can't do things and are pathetic/weak.

I do not want to be a man. I want to be a woman. And I want to be the type of women God called me to be. Not fragile as in pathetic, but fragile as in fine china that should be treated with great care and respect.

See, I told you I was worked up.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Long Overdue

This evening I went for a horseback ride, bareback. It was only about 1/2 an hour, and I am embarrassed to say it was my first one of the year.

Chai was sick at the beginning of the summer, so I wanted to give him time to recover from that. And then we missed a hoof trim, so his hooves were long and starting to chip. I didn't want to ride him like that because I didn't want him to injure his feet.

But last week the farrier came, and this evening was the first time in a long time I have had an evening free. It was so nice to get out there with him. It was relaxing. The weather was perfect.

Hopefully I can get out a few more times this year. He is really starting to show his age so I don't know how much longer he will be healthy enough to ride.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

There's A Rumbling In My Tummy

I have been having stomach problems for a long time. I have been for an U/S for it, tried some medication, and tried the naturopath. So far nothing has worked. And I just CAN NOT live with this rumbly tummy and the fun things it brings my way.

So I am going to start eliminating things. First, I am trying milk to see if I am lactose intolerant. I bought some Lactaid yesterday so if I do happen to have something with dairy in it, I will just take a few of those first. But for the most part I am not going to be drinking/eating dairy products.

I will try that for a week or two. If that doesn't seem to calm things down then I am going to try a gluten free diet. If that doesn't work, then I don't know what to try next!

All I know is that I need to do something. I can't live like this forever!

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Computer Cuddles

I can always count on my Grey to be snuggling with me while on the macbook. This is where she is always found. Either like this or trying to put her paws on the touchpad!

Monday, August 22, 2011

Garden Freshness

I love summer.

One of my favourite parts of summer is the fresh produce from the garden. Yesterday afternoon I spend 2 1/2 hours weeding my garden that was neglected for the past few weeks. I weeded until my wrists were aching, took a break and then weeded some more.

While weeding I discovered that I have LOTS of tomatoes coming. Very few are ripe, but they soon will be! I have a feeling they are all going to be ripe at the same time and I am not going to know what to do with them all. Well, I do know what I will do! I am planning on making salsa and pasta sauce!

We have an abundance of cucumbers now. I am loving it. I have the capacity to eat a lot of them. I don't think I will get sick of them. But we can only eat so many before they go bad, so I am sure in a few weeks we will have some to give away. I just gave a pailful to my mom this evening. I am thinking I should pick some while they are tiny so we can make pickles!

I was also at my mother in laws to package corn for freezing. We cooked it, cut it off the cob and put in it freezer bags. We got 48 bags of corn! Last year she only had 12 bags. This is such a great harvest year. I love corn. I only stop eating corn on the cob because I am embarrasses how many I am eating, not because I am sick of it. You can never have too much.

This year I was also blessed with fresh raspberries and strawberries to freeze, and canned green beans! I think we have enough to get through the winter.

I dream of being a stay at home mom with a big garden so our family can eat all sorts of freshness from it all year round!

Sunday, August 21, 2011

Body By Vi 90 Day Challenge Week 3

My 90 Day Challenge is still going well. So far I am down 6.6 pounds! I am loving the shakes. This week I tried to the Strawberry Mix-In with some ice and milk. It tasted EXACTLY like a strawberry milkshake. This morning for breakfast I mixed in a little bit of pistachio pudding mix with some ice and skim milk. It was AMAZING! I have a few more recipes I would like to try. So much so that I can't wait until it is time for my next shake.

This past week I have not eating very healthy suppers or snacks, so I was very surprised that I managed to even lose 0.6 of a pound. I would like to start getting back into the exercise groove this week. If I could only get to bed on time!

I am super excited to share about these products with other people. I am excited to help people get healthier. I am excited to help people achieve their financial goals.

I have been dreaming these last couple days of building up my team. I would love to make enough money from this to pay off all out debt. I would LOVE to be able to use that money for our fertility treatments and adoption. I would love to get Eric a decent vehicle to drive. I would love to help pay off the debts of my family and take them on a nice trip somewhere!


Saturday, August 20, 2011

It Takes One - Updated

I guess I lied before. I didn't do it knowingly, but I lied.

I just takes one pregnancy announcement to send me spiralling into a pit of despair.

I didn't plan to be upset about the next announcement, but I still cried myself to sleep last night.

Just when you think you are going to be ok, it all comes flooding back. The sinking feeling. The sadness. The panic. The twisted stomach. The realization that you are hopeless. The people looking at you with pity. The people fawning and talking about this baby while they forget about your pain.

It shouldn't hurt this much. I should be used to it.

In October it will officially be 4 years of waiting for us. And for them it happened "sooner than expected".

That makes me nauseous. No I am not just saying that, I actually feel ill.

How can something that is so excited for one person, be so incredibly painful for another?

Right now Eric is watching Juno, and Juno just said to the prospective adoptive mother about being pregnant "You are lucky it isn't you". You could see the pain on the infertile woman's face. I know that pain all too well.

Oh, Lord, please help me to be happy for them and to not act selfishly. And please, oh, please let the waiting list seem short for an IUI.

Update -Right after publishing this post, AF showed up. Literally 2 minutes after. YAY

Friday, August 19, 2011

Rainbow Stage

Today Eric surprised me with a date to Rainbow Stage to see Hairspray! I knew we were going on a date, I just didn't know where!

It was a really good show. I love musicals. I love Rainbow Stage. I wanted to go to Cats this year but I missed out. I would love to go to a Broadway show someday!

I am so very thankful for a husband who does things like this for me. I am beyond blessed to be married to him!

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Thursday, August 18, 2011


I just got back from a Body By Vi Winnipeg launch party. It made me pretty pumped, as meeting like that usually do. But it also helped me realize a little more the amazing opportunity this company is!

I am sorry I am talking about it so much, but I really think it is going to take off and I don't want anyone left behind! So please, if you are interested, don't think about it! Just do it! You won't regret it!'

I am staying at Alyssa's in the city tonight. It just makes more sense than driving all the way home just to sleep and then turn around and come halfway back the next day!

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Oops! - 90 Day Challenge Week 2

I forgot to post about Week 2 on Sunday!

It went very well. So far I have lost a total of 6 lbs and 2.5 inches. Not as dramatic as the first week, but that is no surprise! I am still loving the shakes, although somtimes I miss chewing food at lunch at work. But I think that is because I am used to munching on my lunch break! I have started going for a walk instead, and I am not feeling hungry. As long as I have my morning and afternoon snack I am not starving!

I need one more person to become a distributor under me by tomorrow so I can become a rising star! Because of that, I will pay the $49 sign up fee! Please message me if you are interested! You have nothing to lose. Well, maybe some weight of course!

For more info check out my website!

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Leash Training

Leash training Grey is not going well.

As soon as there is a tug on neck she screams. She is such a wimp. She won't take treats and she just wants to be picked up.

The only think I can think of is to keep walking her until she stops screaming. During our training sessions the screams get less and less and almost non-existent towards the end. But the next time I teach her she does it all over again.

I don't think that I work with her often enough. I think it would be best if we leash trained every night, but I am lazy and inconsistent. So the fact that she is not leash trained at 6 months is my fault.

I have never had a dog scream this much though! I think she inherited this from her father, he is a wimpy dog too.

She really is a sweetheart though!

Monday, August 15, 2011

Random Pins

I think this is a great idea. Using grey water to flush your toilet!

So cute! Using thumbprints from each family member!

Source: via Lindsey on Pinterest

Paint chip mobile. you could do any colour you want!!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

The Jacket

Eric came home from camp a week ago with these 4 huge bags of lost and found. They were headed to the thrift shop.

I wanted to look through them but didn't have a chance. When I got home from work there was this beautiful turquoise rain jacket laying in a laundry basket in the kitchen. I tried it on, and it fit PERFECTLY. I asked Eric who's it was, and he said "Yours!". He had picked it out of the lost and found bags because he knew I would like it.

I was so pumped about my new jacket, but he warned me "You know you have to give that jacket back if someone calls looking for it."

Of course I knew that, but what are the odds someone will call about it if they haven't already.

I guess the odds are pretty good because a few days later someone called looking for that jacket. I was pretty heartbroken, but someone paid good money for that jacket and they deserved to get it back.

Fast forward to yesterday. After our spa experience Peggy and I decided to do some shopping. I wanted to go to Warehouse One because our other co-worker, Kyra, is always getting nice clothes from there, for cheap. Plus they were having a sale, 50% off all clearance items on the last ticketed price.

And there it was. My jacket. There was only one left. It was the exact size of the one I had at home. It was originally $40 marked down to $30 and now $15 with the sale. I had to buy it.

I tried to on again to make sure, and started second guessing myself. Do I really need another jacket? Did I really want it now that I had to pay money for it.

I told Peggy the story and she insisted I buy it. How could I not?

Like Eric said when I got home and showed him, it was meant to be.

So here it is, the jacket...

Saturday, August 13, 2011


Today my friend/coworker Peggy and I went to the city to cash in some of my dealfind coupons! My mom was supposed to come along for her mother's day but she didn't want to right now, and I had already booked it so I invited Peggy along!

We went to a salon on Marion, Hair Creations, to get a shellac manicure, spa pedicure and a 30 min relaxation massage. It was really fun! There was only one aesthetician on staff, so we had to alternate but she pulled up a chair (except for the massage) so we could still talk to each other.

We got all that for 39 each! Otherwise, I wouldn't be doing something like that! If we got all that full price it would be $147! I think a shellac manicure alone is 40-45 bucks.

I love those deal sites!

I have to keep my eye out for another pedicure coupon so I can take my mom!

Friday, August 12, 2011

My Surgery

Writing my last post stirred up some thoughts.

I wonder if sometimes people forget about how badly I want a child.

I talked about the things I have done to my body in hopes of a baby. But probably the scariest for me was my surgery.

When Eric had hernia surgery a few years back, something about it terrified me. I knew right then and there I would never want to have surgery.

So when Dr. K informed me that surgery was necessary before we did an IUI, I was pretty upset. I did not want to do it, but if I wanted to get closer to having a baby, I knew I needed to. We could have done IVF without the surgery, but we are not ready to do that nor can we afford that without trying IUI first.

Like I said, I was terrified. I was terrified of going under anaesthesia. I was terrified of getting post op infections or contracting MSRA. I was sure that I wasn't going to wake up. I couldn't shake that thought. I was scared the entire time. When they wheeled me away from Eric and I had to sit alone in the pre op room by myself was probably the scariest part of it all. Scarier still was when they wheeled me out of the pre op room and Amazing Grace was playing, I was sure it was the end. That was the last song I was ever going to hear. I wanted to rip out my IV and jump off the table and go home.

Thankfully God has other plans. He takes care of us. He is our comforter. Surgery, although the few days after were painful, was no big deal. God is faithful.

After that I decided to stop watching TV shows, especially medical ones. They were turning me into a hypochondriac, and I don't need to fill my mind with those thoughts. Especially when I am prone to anxiety.... but that is another post all together!

So in case anyone forgot, I want a baby pretty badly. Badly enough that I am willing do things that terrify me.

Thursday, August 11, 2011


I am pretty sure I have gotten over the initial sting of infertility. I mean, I still wish I wasn't in this situation, but right now I don't feel sad every day like I did before. I can handle hearing about pregnancies and seeing babies without having a mental breakdown or being insanely jealous. It took me a while, but I am finally there. Not saying I don't have my bad days, but they are few and far between!

The only time it does sting is when people take it for granted. And if I say anything about how blessed they are just to have a baby/be pregnant, then they proceed to tell me that I don't know what it is like to be in that situation and that I will feel the same when when I am.

Um, ouch! I would give anything to be in that situation. Some times if baffles me the things I have put my body through to be in that situation. Boatloads of bloodwork, ultrasound, MRI, x rays, SURGERY, drugs, spending every spare dollar on treatments, month after month of charting, money spent on OPKS. I have not done all that stuff so that I can gripe about everyday challenges with a baby.

It goes both ways. I may not know what it is like to be a mother, but most don't know what it is like to deal with infertility either.

So please, don't assume I will feel the same way as you. One of the benefits of infertility is that I will be able to find joy in the 40+ weeks of pregnancy, screaming babies, sleepless nights and blow out diapers that a lot of people take for granted.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

A Present For Me

One of the best parts of my jobs is getting "presents". And by "presents" I mean fecal and urine samples for testing. Our receptionist always says "Lindsey, I have a present for you!" and then I know it is nothing good. Well the other day she sent me this, an I though it was really cute! If only they could all be like this. My job would be a little less work and a lot less gross!

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

Monday, August 08, 2011

Challenge Party

Today my Body By Vi Challenge Party went very well! People loved the shakes and couldn't believe how good they tasted! I signed up quite a few more people today.

I am really excited about doing this challenge with other people. I think this is the best way to get healthy. To do it with friends who will motivate you, inspire you, encourage you, support you, and maybe even a little healthy competition!

I am sure you get getting sick of my posting this, but for more info on the products you can go to

Sunday, August 07, 2011

Week 1 Of The 90 Day Challenge

My 90 day challenge is going very well. This last week I have lost 5.6 lbs and 1.5 inches. That far exceeded my expectations! Though I don't think I will continue to loose at that rate, it sure is a great way to start off!

The shakes are very tasty. My regulars have been berries and cream, peanut butter cup, creamsicle, and iced cappuccino!

The first two days I was hungry in the afternoon and I didn't know if I could just have shakes for two meals for 90 days. But after that they have been filling me up and keeping me full. I always have a healthy snack in the afternoon anyways.

I actually like having the two shakes for breakfast and lunch. It makes getting ready for work in the morning way simpler. I always dreaded finding and making lunch for myself in the morning, but now it is easy! Things are a lot less stressful now, and I like it like that!

If you want more info on the challenge you can visit my website, or come to my challenge party tomorrow!

Saturday, August 06, 2011

Broken Dreams

My uncle gave us a new oven. It is not brand new, but it is probably 10-15 years newer than the one we have. It looked lovely. I was so excited to start using it.

On the way home, because it did not get tied down, it fell in the back of the truck and the glass faceplate shattered on the road. We have the knobs and everything. It probably still works but we don't know which way is high or low, which dial is for which element, and how hot the oven would be. It is also pretty banged up on the outside.

I was so close. For 15 minutes I had a beautiful stove. Too bad I never got the chance to use it.

Sometimes it seems like we get nothing easy. Like everything is a struggle and we get all the bad luck. Like all I ever get is junk and I will never have anything nice.

And then I am reminded....

I own my home.

I have a comfortable bed.

I have a cool house in the summer and a warm house in the winter.

I own an oven that I can cook food in.

I have a fridge to keep things cold.

I have enough food to keep me full.

I have indoor plumbing.

I have electricity.

I have a nice car that gets me where I need to go.

I have clothes and shoes.

I have a wonderful husband who loves me.

I have amazing family and friends.

I get to live out in the country.

I have all the animals I want and they are well taken care of.

I have all the electronics that I could ever wish for.

I have a good job.

I have fresh food growing in the garden.

I have beautiful flowers outside in my yard.

I could go on and on. The blessings never end.

But most importantly I have a Jesus who died for me and a God who loves me. He loves ME!!

And I am thankful every day for the blessings in my life. There may be a lot of things I would like, but I have everything I need.

Friday, August 05, 2011

More Bro Pics

Here are some more of my favourites from my fun shoot with my bro. Editing these pics was so much fun that I am pretty desperate for photoshop now!!

Thursday, August 04, 2011

90 Day Challenged Summed Up In 5 Minutes!

The answer to the two questions at the end:

2. The party is on Monday, August 8th at 7pm at my place!!

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

Photo Shoot

I forced my brother do to a photo shoot with me on the weekend. I wanted to learn to use evening light better so I took tonnes of pictures. Then I was playing around with editing and I ended up with this and thought it looked cool!
He was a trooper but he was SO sick of pictures by the end! I had to bribe him with ice cream and a movie!

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

Late Nights

I need to stop doing these late nights. I always have big dreams of going to be early, but they never come true. I am always finding myself busy doing something that I don't want to stop and they I don't just my eyes until 12 or after. That gives me less than 7 hours of sleep. I usually get 6.5 on an average night. That is just not enough! They do studies on these things for a reason. I would also like to get up and run in the mornings, but if I don't adjust my bedtime that means even less sleep!

Speaking of sleep, I need to start heading to be now....

Monday, August 01, 2011

Agave Almond Bran Muffins

I had a pretty productive weekend. We got home Saturday afternoon, and I was in the mood to clean. It took me quite some time to unpack because I was doing so many other things. I washed all of our bedding, and by all I mean the down comforter, the duvet cover, mattress cover, sheets, pillow cases. I cleaned the fridge, which was long over due. The rest of the weekend was filled with relaxation and cleaning. I almost have our whole bedroom overhauled. I probably haven'tdone that since we moved in! I was so thankful to have a few days at home without any plans because July felt so busy.

I have been wanting to bake some muffins for a while, but haven't had the chance because of busyness. Today I made these and I am very happy with how they turned out. And yes, I made up the recipe by looking at a basic bran muffin recipe.

Agave Almond Bran Muffins

1 cup wheat bran
1 cup almond flour
1/2 cup spelt flour (or any other type of flour, you can also use all almond flour if you want)
2 tsp baking powder
1 egg, beaten
1/2 cup agave nectar (you can use honey or maple syrup, too)
2 tbsp olive oil
3/4 cup skim milk
1/2 to 1 cup of semi sweet chocolate chips (or raisins if you prefer. I don't!)
3-4 tbsp hemp hearts
Preheat oven to 400 F

1. Mix all ingredients together well.
2. Spoon into greased muffin tins or lined muffin tins
3. Bake for 15 minutes or until done. Be careful, they might look light on the top but will be dark on the bottom.

Makes 12 muffins

Each muffin has approx 200 calories, 24 g carbs, 4 g fibre, 13 g sugar (keep in mind it is agave nectar, which is a low GI sugar), and a whopping 7 grams of protein! Not to mention heart healthy fats from the olive oil and hemp hearts! Perfect for an in-between meal snack!

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