Today I did my second weigh in with weight watchers. I lost another 1.5 lbs, and the first emotion I feel is disappointment. I feel like that is not enough, I should have done better, I should have lost more. But I have to remind myself that if the scale is going down, that is a good thing. And I am not going to loose 40 pounds in a month.
This is my background pic right now....
Helps to remind me that this isn't going to happen overnight!
So I joined Weight Watchers. A few of you suggested it. I had tried it last year and I really liked it, but then I got pregnant with Tallet and was not supposed to be on it. They actually offered to give my money back when I emailed them about what to do! That is another reason I wanted to join again.
I joined for 6 months. I am going to try it for that period of time, and if it doesn't work for me than I will never do it again. But I just had to try.
I am loving it so far. I love the points plus system, it is easy to keep track of what you eat and your activity. I love that I can eat what I want, Weight Watchers teaches you portion control. Sure have a whole chocolate bar. But it is going to use up enough points as a healthy meal would, so which one would you choose? I have already found I am not snacking on things I normally would because I don't want to use up my points.
I have an app on my ipod that is SO handy for tracking points. And it has a points plus calculator, all you need is the fat, carbs, fiber and protien of a food to calculate it.
My weigh in day is Sundays, so this Sunday was 3 days into it. I had already lost 2 lbs! I stepped on the scale 3 times to make sure it was right, cause I didn't believe it. I get a ridiculous amount of points in a day because I am breastfeeding, so I was pretty skeptical that I could loose weight on that amount of points, but I did! I am trying my BEST not to step on the scale again till next Sunday, but it is hard.
I am kinda interested in starting up a Weight Watchers meeting group in Riverton. There has never been one and I think a bunch of people would be interested. But I think that will wait for a while to see if this system actually works.
I am also half finished the 30 day shred. Today is day 17. It is pretty rare for me to get this far into a workout series without giving up, and that gives me a lot of confidence actually. I don't like using the word proud a whole lot, but for lack of a better word I am proud of myself for sticking to it and not missing a day yet!
This HAS to be the time I succeed. I can not and will not fail this time. I have been failing at this game for 10 years and this time I will win. I have to win. I love winning.
The other day I watched the movie Julie & Julia and I was inspired to cook through an entire cookbook. I wasn't quite ready to search for bizzare ingredients to do the Julia Child cookbook, so some people suggested Simply In Season. It is actually a MCC cookbook, and you cook and bake with veggies and fruits that are in season. This means they taste better and they are more affordable.
This is my second week and we are enjoying it a lot. Most of the recipes have been good. I have enjoyed trying new things.
At the beginning of the week I make a menu, shop for all the ingredients. This has made making suppers WAY easier and more fun. I was going to list all the things we have tried, but I meant to make this post a week ago and now it is too many recipes to name off hand. I will try to post more about it everyday.
Today I made Sweet Potato soup which was VERY good. Suprising for me because I can only handle so much sweet potato at a time. I also made the Whole Wheat Dinner Rolls which were ok, and Secret Chocolate Cake. The 'secret" is that these is beets in it, which isn't all that secret to my taste buds. I am not too crazy about it, it tastes too earthy for me!
Tallet is sure going to have to get used to having a camera in his face, because I love taking pictures of him! I love his many faces, he's got such personality. These adorable pictures also help me to forget the fact that it just took us an hour to get him down for a nap.
Today I finished Level 1 of Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred. I did it Mon-Friday for two weeks. It has worked out quite well for me to do it in the morning while Tallet naps, but a few times I had to do it in the afternoon or evening. I really want to make working out a habit, and so far so good. After I finish this program I hope to do the 90 day Turbo Fire program!
I need to change. I have been trying to loose weight since I was 16. Yet here I am almost back to my heaviest weight.
I am tired of feeling depressed.
I am tired of having a low self image.
I am tired of my clothes not fitting properly.
I have tried SO many different things and nothing has been long lasting. Some things have worked, but nothing lasted.
I KNOW how to loose weight. I know it takes healthy eating and exercise. My problem is making it a permanent habit.
I always get off track. I always get stressed and stuff my face. I always find some excuse to fail.
No more failing.
No more excuses.
I NEED to do this.
My goal is to be at my ideal weight by October 20th 2013. I want to be fit. I want to be healthy. I want to feel good about myself. I want to be healthy enough to get rid of all symptoms of PCOS so I can get pregnant naturally.
To motivate myself I have decided to set aside a certain amount of money to spend on a new wardrobe once I meet my goal. For extra motivation, Eric will get than money to spend on whatever he wants if I don't reach that goal. He has already promised me that he wouldn't try to sabotage me. Even the thought of him spending that money if I fail makes me kinda angry.
The sad part is that I don't know if this will be enough to keep me going. I hope it is. I don't know what else I can do to stay motivated.