Monday, October 31, 2011

More Exciting Phone Calls!

I called Heartland again today to leave my work number. They didn't call me back at work, but they did call Eric at home. They told him we would be in the January cycle. We have a appointment on December 7th to sign some forms and do some IUI training. I also have to let them know which CD I am on, and depending on that I might have to go one birth control pills to get my cycle to the right date. I am not excited about going on the pill again, but I know it is different this time around.

The nurse said we have to decide whether we want to do oral or injectable meds. I am leaning towards injectable because I know they're more effective and I don't want to waste time. They are more expensive, but I am pretty sure our heath care plan will cover it!

The nurse is supposed to call me at work tomorrow with more details. I can't wait!

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Weekend Recap

Dress shopping Saturday was a lot of fun. More fun than I expected. I was a bit nervous to be the one trying on dresses because I didn't think they would have my size. But they did, and then some. I got into every dress no problem. I loved trying on all those pretty dresses. It was hard to pick, but then we settled on three that we liked and wrote the style numbers down. So far the plan is that all three bridesmaids will hve the same color but whatever dress suits them best. We did not buy anything yet, it is too far away and who knows if I will needs a lot of belly room! :)

After dress shopping we went to a few others stores and then out for supper. Then we drove from Fargo to Grand Forks, dropped stuff off at the hotel and did a bit more shopping. We hit up the pool/hot tub, watched some classic halloween kids movies and went to bed.

This morning Eric picked me up just outside of Rosenort where he was for night. We headed to the city for lunch, some future house planning, and we watched Moneyball. It was a great movie!

After that we had a bible study with friends. It is so great to get together with other believers to discuss the things of God. It always leaves me feeling refreshed, renewed and encouraged. God definitely intended for us (all followers) to meet together and worship Him like that!

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Saturday, October 29, 2011

Dress Shopping!

I am on my way to Fargo to go bridesmaid dress shopping. I am the maid of honor for my cousin Mallory! I am so exited to start shopping and planning. I am especially excited to plan her shower!
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Friday, October 28, 2011

The Call

We finally got the call from Heartland! Unfortunately they called yesterday and we didn't get the message till today. But that is okay because they are not back in their office until Tuesday anyways! They were calling to book some appointments, so you know what that means!! An IUI soon!! I am super pumped and Tuesday can't come fast enough.
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Thursday, October 27, 2011


Today we officially sold our trailer.

I am happy it is sold, but bummed about the amount we got for it and the fact that we didn't give anyone else interested in it a chance to make us an offer. But there is nothing I can do about that now.

I am trying to focus on the happy fact that in just over two months I will have my very own house with closets! YAY!

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

10 in 10

So, I got some new info from some messages boards. Heartland does IUI cycles the same time they do IVF cycles and we missed the October one. :(

Apparently the next one is December/January so hopefully we will be part of that one.

In one way this is a good thing, it gives me all of November for my 10 in 10 campaign! I would like to have at least 10 Partylite shows in November, with $10,000 in sales. With 25% commission, that will give me $2500 for our first IUI. 

So if you or anyone else you know wants to have a party, PLEASE let me know. I can also do an unlimited amount of book parties! If you don't want to have a party, every order helps! There is a really good sale going on for all of November so I can send all the info to anyone interested!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

New Plan

Thanks ladies for all your tips and encouragement!

I think this is going to be my new plan. Jobina suggested I do what had worked for me in the past. And what has worked the best is Thin Within and my naturopath prescribed diet. I am starting a 12 week Thin Within bible study in our community as soon as possible, and I am going back to a low GI diet.

Also, like a few of you suggested I am not buying anything unhealthy any more. Actually I have been doing that for a while but in the last week let it slip a little bit.

I am so excited to get that bible study going. I am hoping I can get a few ladies to join with me, but even if I can't I will be doing it!

Monday, October 24, 2011

The Packing Has Begun

Today we spent some time packing up our yard. Seeing as how we will be moving in the winter, we didn't really want to dig through all the snow to find our stuff. We are storing everything in an empty barn at the farm until we move to our new place.

We also packed up several boxes of inside stuff that we can live without for a few months and that will be ok to freeze. Our pile of stuff on the barn looks huge already, and it isn't even the beginning of what we have to move! It is kind of a scary thought!

We are hoping to get a few more boxes packed up this week because we are having an open house this weekend. We have quite a few people interested in our place, so we thought it would be easier to just have one day that everyone could come and check things out!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

More Struggles

Seeing as how I am on a roll will all these feelings....

I am really struggling with this weight thing. I so badly want to be healthy and fit, but I just can't seem to stick to anything. Some people would say that I just don't want it bad enough, but that is not true. I feel like I have no control when it comes to eating. I try and I will do so good for a few hours or days, and then it will all come crashing down. It doesn't matter what kind of shakes I drink, as long as I keep eating 40 big feet candies in one sitting nothing will change.

My diet is a lot healthier than it used to be, thats for sure. But I still eat too much junk. I feel like I have no restraint. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to change. I don't know how to stop. I feel like I will never change. I will always be fat.  I hate that thought. I don't want that to be true. I want to be one of those success stories, but I don't know how. Honestly I am tired of trying. Maybe I should just accept that I will be like this forever?!?

Please, if you have any ideas of what will help me, please let me know. 

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Today's Struggles

I'll admit, my posts have been a little superficial lately. I haven't really given myself much time to sit down and write a proper post.

Today I am struggling with frustrastion, bitterness and jealously. You think after all of this time I would be able to deal with these feelings properly. I should have enough practice. I probably need professional help. So please excuse me if this post feels rant-y.

I am frustrated because I feel no one understands me. Some people pretend to, but things they say let me know that they really don't get it. I am thankful for their effort to try though.

I am frustrated because I am always waitng. Waiting for 4 whole years. Waiting for a phone call. Waiting for an appointment. Waiting for the test results. Waiting for CD14. Waiting for 14DPO. Waiting for this pain to go away. Waiting for an answer. Waiting for some direction.

Right now is the middle of another baby explosion. It seems that alot of people like to announce their pregnancies in the fall. I already know of about 10, and I am sure there will be more. I SO badly want to be part of this one.

I can't stop thinking about how I can manipulate my circumstances for a different outcome. Like maybe if I change my attitude God will answer my prayer. Or maybe if I pray about this He will. Or maybe if I do this He will. Or maybe if I pray this way He will. Or maybe if I keep my mouth shut He will. Or maybe if I am extra nice to this person He will. Or maybe if I help out that person He will. Or maybe if I pray harder He will. Maybe if I share my struggle with others He will.

I know logically that God doesn't work like that. You cannot manipulate the maker. But I keep letting those thoughts run through my head.

Also I keep letting myself believe that it will be a special circumstance when I get pregnant. Like I will get to tell Eric on his birthday, or on fathers day, or our anniversary or something like that. Or now that we are getting a new place I will all of a sudden get pregnant because of that. Or when my friend gets pregnant I will to so we can be pregnant and have babies together. But none of that has worked out for me either.

I am so helpless. There is nothing left for me to do. I have tried it all. I am powerless. I cannot become pregnant on my own strength or will.

I am so thankful that is not the end of it. I am so thankful that there is a loving God who gives me hope. A hope for the future. A hope for a family. I have done all I can do, and now all that is left is to surrender it to God.

"Take it God. My infertility is in Your hands. I am done trying on my own. "

Friday, October 21, 2011

Scattered Seeds

Today I went to the Scattered Seeds craft sale in Winnipeg with my friend Peggy! I sure love craft sales. There was a lot of great stuff for sale. I got some Christmas shopping done and a few cool things for myself. I will share more about them another day, but I just got home and I am tired and AF just arrived this morning. 

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Leona Grey

I just love Leona Grey. She brings so much joy to our family. She is full of energy and playful. She is such a doll in front of the camera. She is a fast learner. She loves cookies and will do anything for one. She has brought the playfulness back to my other two dogs. Paris and Fleury don't like each other a whole lot. They never played together. I think they just have an agreement to peacefully co-exsist. But with Grey in the mix, they are playing all the time. I even caught just the two of them playing together the other day, without Grey! This was unheard of until she was born!

Grey really doesn't have a mean bone in her body. She is kind to all people old and young. It is kinda cool to have a puppy since they were born.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Oatmeal Cookies

I made these a week or so ago with Sugar Twin Granulated Brown sugar and they were alright, but has a really weird taste to them. So I found my own brown sugar substitute recipe (1 cup granulated sweetener and 1/4 cup sugar free maple syrup = 1 cup brown sugar sub.) and these ones turned out fantastic! They taste so good you can hardly tell they are healthy! This is one of my favourite Low GI recipes so far!

2 cups old fashioned rolled oats
3/4 cup whole wheat flour (I used 1/2 almond flour)
1/2 cup wheat bran
1/2 tsp baking soda
1/2 tsp ground cinnamon
pinch of salt
1 cup brown sugar substitute
1/2 cup non-hydrogenated soft margarine
1/4 cup liquid egg (I just used 1 whole large egg)
1/4 cup water
2 tsp vanilla extract
1/2 cup dried currents (Lets be honest, currents are gross so I used semi sweet chocolate chips, but only a 1/4 cup) OPTIONAL

1. Preheat oven to 375 F
2. Mix oats, flour, bran, baking soda, cinnamon, and salt in medium bowl.
3. In a large bowl, beat the brown sugar sub., margarine, egg, water and vanilla. Slowly add oat mixture to bowl and mix until combine. Add currents chocolate chips and stir to combine.
3. Spoon onto baking sheets lined with parchment paper and flatten slightly. Bake until firm and golden, about 8 min. Let cool on rack!

They freeze well!


Monday, October 17, 2011

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Saturday, October 15, 2011


Today we went to a friends wedding in the city. They had the reception at a hotel downtown, so we decided to stay there.

So far we have been to the pool twice. It is kinda nice not having to drive home late.

I will post pics tomorrow.
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Friday, October 14, 2011

More Cool Nails.

It's late, and I am tired, so this is all I can post today! I did newspaper nails the other day, but replaced them with these tonight for a wedding tomorrow! This is so time consuming but I love the results!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Love Them

This is one of my favourite bands for sure!

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

It's October!

Which means, I should be getting a call sometime this month from the Heartland nurses! I can't wait!

This also leads me to wonder, how are we going to pay for it?

I am constantly thinking of ways I can use my crafty skills for money, but this time I think Partylite makes the most sense.

If I can sell $10,000 worth of Partylite in the next two months, which is 20 average shows or 10 large shows, I would be able to pay for the IUI without owing any body money. So if you are willing to help a sister out, please let me know!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011


Today I listed our trailer on Kijiji!

So if you know of someone looking for a humble, VERY affordable place in our area, please pass this link along!

Mobile Home For Sale

I am so excited!

Monday, October 10, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving!

We have so much to be thankful for! Good family, good friends, and most importantly God's love, grace and healing.

Of course at Thanksgiving we think about all the things we should be thankful for. But I think our attitudes should be thankful every day of the year. We should have thankful spirits.

We are so richly blessed in this country and so few people take note of it. We are always wanting more and more. I would like to be less like that and more thankful for what I have, everyday.

Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your blessings
See what God has done
Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your many blessings
See what God has done

Sunday, October 09, 2011

Knit: A Dog Sweater

Today I was itching to knit. So I broke out my pattern book and some left over yarn and whipped up this sweater for my dogs! I can't wait to knit some more!

Saturday, October 08, 2011

Tonight's Sky

Today I am thankful for God's simple, yet incredible gift of a sunset!

Friday, October 07, 2011


I would love to try these next!! SUPER easy!

Thursday, October 06, 2011

I tried them! & An Urgent Prayer Request

*This has nothing to do with the below pictures but it is way more important. Two friends of mine fell from a 35 foot tower today and have major injuries and need healing miracles. Please pray for them  and their families as often as you can. Thank you!*

I tried the water marbling of the nails. It turned out great. It is not perfect, because I sucked at painting my nails underneath but I think it looks pretty cool! It was very easy, but time consuming. 

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

Cool Nails

I like to have nicely painted nails, but I am pretty awful at keeping it up!

I would love to try this. It looks so cool, and relatively simple!

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

Mixed Bean Soup

Today I wasn't feeling good at work. I didn't eat much for lunch and I didn't really feel like making or eating supper. I did muster the energy to go for a run and to do Ripped in 30 after supper though! :)

I needed something super easy and I wanted it to be Low GI. So I threw something together that I had in my cupboard and it turned out really well. The only real work I did was to pick and peel the carrots.

Mixed Bean Soup

1 can diced tomatoes
1 can cut green beans
1 can mixed beans
5 large carrots, peeled & sliced
2 cloves of garlic, pressed
2-3 tbsp beef bouillon (to taste)
2 bay leaves
1 tsp basil
1 tsp fresh ground pepper
water to cover ingredients

Combine all ingredients. Bring to boil, then simmer for 20 minutes or until carrots are tender.

It was that easy! Eric really liked it as well, and I was happy I didn't have to do a lot of work. Next time I might add another can of mixed beans. They make you feel like you are eating meat! :)

Monday, October 03, 2011

Monday, Monday

I have had three mondays off since starting my new shift, and so far we have went to the city for everyone. I kinda just wanna spend one at home! And we are going next Monday too for Thanksgiving.

Today we met with a financial advisor about life insurance, RRSP and disability insurance. With a big business purchase in our near future we figured it was time to grow up and do something responsible with our money.

We ended up applying, and even had to go get medicals done today. Now we just wait to see if we get approved!

Afterwards we went to Eric's brothers to kill time before a concert in the evening. I ended up sleeping on the couch for 2 1/2 hours! It was a much needed nap.

The concert was fun, but it wasn't really my style of music.

Now I just might sleep in the car on the way home!
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Sunday, October 02, 2011

Body By Vi 90 Day Challenge - Week??

I kinda lost track of what week I am on.

I have been struggling for the last couple weeks. I have been eating a lot of junk, eating in restaurants a lot, not exercising. Therefore, I had not lost anything.

But now I am happy to say I am back on the wagon. My current results are 10.5 lbs and 5.5 inches lots.

Sometimes 10 lbs doesn't seem like a whole lot. But when I look at my two Chihuahuas who weigh 10 lbs together, I can't believe I was carrying that extra weight around just 2 short months ago.

I am still loving the shakes. I am trying new flavours all the time. I recently switched from almond milk to light soy milk. I LOVE soy milk. I never thought I would, but it is much better than almond milk. My shakes are so much better with it!

Saturday, October 01, 2011

Of Course

I knew it. This is why I was hesitant to post about it.

I slept in this morning and missed my workout. My alarm did not go off, and I woke up 20 minutes too late. I actually considered being late for work so I could exercise, but decided that wouldn't be very responsible!

And we just got home and it is almost 12, so my motivation to work out tonight is pretty much nil. But maybe I should anyways just for disciplines sake....
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