Friday, February 01, 2013

Desperate For Change

I need to change. I have been trying to loose weight since I was 16. Yet here I am almost back to my heaviest weight. 

I am tired of feeling depressed. 

I am tired of having a low self image. 

I am tired of my clothes not fitting properly. 

I have tried SO many different things and nothing has been long lasting. Some things have worked, but nothing lasted. 

I KNOW how to loose weight. I know it takes healthy eating and exercise. My problem is making it a permanent habit. 

I always get off track. I always get stressed and stuff my face. I always find some excuse to fail. 

No more failing. 

No more excuses. 

I NEED to do this. 

My goal is to be at my ideal weight by October 20th 2013. I want to be fit. I want to be healthy.  I want to feel good about myself. I want to be healthy enough to get rid of all symptoms of PCOS so I can get pregnant naturally. 

To motivate myself I have decided to set aside a certain amount of money to spend on a new wardrobe once I meet my goal. For extra motivation, Eric will get than money to spend on whatever he wants if I don't reach that goal. He has already promised me that he wouldn't try to sabotage me. Even the thought of him spending that money if I fail makes me kinda angry. 

The sad part is that I don't know if this will be enough to keep me going. I hope it is. I don't know what else I can do to stay motivated. 

Any ideas?


Evan and Mel said...


Great post, super honest. I love that!
I am in the fitness industry and have been for 5+ years. I have some suggestions for you in your are interested. I dont want to step on your toes though, hope I am not being too forward.
I would love to help out, my suggestions I would give you and everyone else I help are super practical and easy to follow.

If you are interested send me an email.


Anonymous said...

I'm a big believer in weight watchers. It teaches you portion control and you can still eat normal foods. It's a life style change... No gimmicks. I've been very successful in the past with it.

Kara Lynn said...

Love your honesty!

Lindsey Dueck said...

I actually tried weight watchers last year and loved it. But then I got pregnant and wasn't supposed to be on it anymore!

Crazy Lady said...

I would second the weight watchers sugggestion it is the only thing that has ever worked for me.

Brittney said...

I think it's SO awesome you're doing this! What an encouragement to others and your family. You should be very proud of yourself:)

alison said...

juicing worked wonders for me. it came off fast and stayed off - was really that simple. once you finish the detox stage, maintenance is as easy as a few juices for a few days. BUT, detoxing isn't recommended for breastfeeding... so in that case, this is useless!

Lindsey Dueck said...

Mel, I did email you! Not sure if you got it...

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