Tuesday, May 12, 2015

A Heartbeat!

A few weeks ago, when I was almost 8 week, we had our last ultrasound at Heartland. We got to see our tiny little bean who had grown SO MUCH since our ultrasound a few weeks ago. We got to see his heartbeat, which helped to calm the nerves!

This pregnancy has been totally different so far than Tallet's. I still have a lot of the tiredness, but with quite a bit of nausea along with it. I have not vomited at all, but I do spend a lot of my days feeling quite ill. Somedays I would be totally fine, other days I don't want to do anything but lay on the couch.

I have noticed that it is usually the worse after I eat lunch. I have spend more days that I would care to admit laying on the couch. Part of me doesn't really feel too guilty, I am growing a baby and so thankful for it.

I am finding myself getting SO excited about learning the gender. With Tallet I was adamant that I didn't want to know. And I am so glad we didn't find out, it was fun! But this time around I want to sew for baby, and I know I won't have much time after the babe is born.

BUT we do not want to tell anyone, so that will be tricky. I will have to hide my sewing projects.

We have already decided that we will refer to the baby as "he" regardless of what the gender is. It is easier than trying to be gender neutral and slipping up. I am sure some people will figure it out, but they won't get confirmation till this tot is born.

Speaking of birth. I am terrified. I desperately want a VBAC. But there are so many complications that come along with having a prior c-section. Not just about birth, but with even just getting pregnant.

Like did you know that the placenta can attach to where the scar is, and GET OUT of your uterus, and attach to your other internal organs. This is a very life threatening condition. And it makes me even more upset I had a c-section to begin with.

There are lots of pros and cons to VBAC verses repeat c section, but VBAC has been proven to be safer than repeat c section in the long run.

I do tend to be a hypochondriac, so this is something I am really struggling with. I find myself second guessing even wanting to have a second baby. Right now it just feels so unsafe. I am just hoping I can find a doctor that supports me, and an experience doula to be a good labour support for me.

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