Sunday, February 01, 2009

Issac Newton

So many times this week I have wanted to post something, but I just have had SO MANY thoughts going through my head about so many things that I didn't know where to start/stop! I thought so hard I actually became physically exhausted. I think that might even be why I am sick now! I feel a bit like Issac Newton, who would swing his legs out of bed in the morning and then sit there for HOURS paralyzed by the rush of thoughts flowing in his mind.

I really don't know how to explain how I have been feeling and thinking the last couple days. But I know God is working in my life and changing me. I struggle with listening to sermons in church and not letting my mind drift off to other things, but the other day a point stuck out to me. I thought it was because I was supposed to share it with my small group girls. But it turns out it was for me to think about more than anything. It was "Where do you find your hope? Do you find your hope in Jesus, or do you put all your hopes in other people and the world?" I have always had problems with letting little things bother me, and getting all rilled up about them. And I now realize it was because I was putting my hope in people. And they end up disappointing. I am learning that you cannot put your hope into humans or any earthly things because they are not perfect, and they will end up disappointing you. God is perfect, therefore our hopes and dreams are safe with Him.

Even though I have heard that truth MANY times before, it has never struck home like it does now. I guess I am realizing how much it actually affects my life when I am putting my hope in other people.

I also joined a bible study in our church. It is all women and it is on Monday afternoons. It is called Believing God, by Beth Moore. I am still not sure what to think about it. It is definitely taking me out of my comfort zone. I barely know any of the people in the bible study! I mean, I see them at church all the time, but I have never had a deep convo with them. Should be interesting.

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