Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Change?!?!

Today I feel like I have SO MUCH to talk about, and I don't really know how to organize it! I have been thinking alot about change lately. Sometimes I think that some kinds of change will never happen, no matter what you try, nothing changes permanently. And I think that sucks. And I don't want it to be true.

Getting in shape is something I am always thinking about and wanting to do. My whole life I have always felt like I was overweigh and needed to loose alot of weight. Looking back now, I wasn't even that bad as a young child and teenager. Since about 16 I have been going through cycles of dieting and exersicing, and my problem did not get better. It has gotten worse. The last couple years I have tried SO MANY things, and nothing had worked or stuck. How do I get out of this cycle? I really don't know. I will go through phases when I get really excited about something and stick with it for a while, then it dies out and I go back to normal habits. I feel so incapable of change. When I look at some people that have been trying to get in shape for years and have done almost everything imaginable but nothing has worked permanetly, it makes me think I will NEVER be in shape.

Even since New Years I have been trying to only buy healthy food. It has been a challenge and I have not followed it completley, but I am still trying. I also bought Turbo Jam and did it for the first time today. It was pretty good. It doesn't seem too hard, but I could feel the burn right away with most of the moves! I really hope I can get into it.

Another thing that needed change was my relationship with God. I needed a better one. I really feel like God has been really changing my over the last years. The Bible study with Beth Moore is excellent, and I have been reading the Message alot. I love that translation! It make everything so much easier to understand and to remember! I am trying to read the whole Bible in one year, that means 3 chapters every day, and 5 chapters on Sundays. I have been doing really good. Most days I try to read 4-6 chapters to make up for the times I read 0-2.

Today I just got my Amazon book order. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Amazon.ca! It is the best and cheapest for ordering books. One of them I got it Thin Within. It is a 30 day devotional book about changing your lifestyle to a healthier one. My friend Chantal started it a couple weeks ago, and she really likes it. I also heard through the grapevine that one of my other friends is using that book, and she looks amazing!! The great think about it is that is combines two of the things I am wanting to change in my life! I can't wait to start it!

4 comments:

Stacey said...

Great post Lindsey. Change IS super hard.

Jay Boaz said...

I hear you about struggling to get in shape. I've dropped between 15-20 pounds in the past couple of months but man does it get tempting sometimes to eat chips or something. The eating habits I've been pretty good on, it's getting in the exercise that I find tough. I just need to force myself to ride my exercise bike more! (my plan is to ride the bike instead of sitting on the couch when watching tv)

Mark said...

Lindsey: I wish you the best with your changes: you can do it! Also, I too love Amazon - you just can't beat their prices. Unfortunately their product doesn't ship as quickly as Chapters but I can wait a little extra to save some money.

Jay: Soon the spring will be here and we can go on a long distance bike riding adventure! Are you in?

amy said...

I read Thin Within last April. It was a real eye opener for me. I borrowed my book out to a friend and just got it back today. I'm looking forward to reading through it again.
I hope it is a good read for you too. I like it because it's not a diet it's a lifestyle change and with God anything is possible!

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