Tuesday, October 19, 2010

TRU 2010

This past weekend we had a EMC youth leadership retreat called TRU in Pinawa. It was a good weekend. The theme is Train, Refresh, Unite and I think we got that accomplished on the weekend.

Brian West was the speaker, and I really liked him. Him and I have similar world views I think. He had a lot of good things to say. The first night he asked if anyone needed prayer. I so desperately wanted to ask, but I was terrified. Eric was feeling the same way, and he raised his hand and asked for prayer for our infertility. It was hard at first to have that out in the open at the very beginning of the weekend. Of course I cried almost immediately. But it was good to get it out. Lots of people thanked us for sharing and said they were praying for us. We even had a guy talk to us that struggled with infertility for 7 years and now him and his wife have 3 kids. It was powerful, and very humbling. I don't want to burden other people by asking them to pray for me, but I am so thankful to have people I barely know praying for us! I can't wait to share good news with them!

Brian also said something that really struck me. He asked if there was any "tell it like it is" people in the crown. I raised my hand. Then he cautioned us to make sure we didn't have the mindset "Grace for me, justice for everyone else." And it hit me, I do have that mindset! So the last couple of days I have been pondering that, and I really want to make sure I change that. Although none of us are worthy of grace, God offers it to us all, and in that respect we all deserve it equally. No one person it more worthy of it than another person! Especially not me. I want to try to be more forgiving.

As for babies, the TWW kills me everytime. Am I or aren't I? Are these cramps implantation or gas? Is my stomach sour because of something I ate or is it the start of morning sickness? Am I going to the washroom more because I am on prednisone(it does make me CRAZY thirsty) or because I am pregnant? It is enough to drive a person nuts.

The upside of a TWW is that you can blissfully act as if you are pregnant, and it is fun.


Stacey said...

Oh wow. Grace for me, justice for everyone else. I never thought of it that way before, but I think that way a lot. Yikes.

Kelsey Loewen said...

Chad and I really admire you guys for being brave and putting yourself out there. We're praying for you!

Dueck said...

Hey. I just found your blog and have been purusing it for the first time. I've heard that you guys have been struggling with infertility through the grapevine and I appreciate getting to hear more about it directly from you. You have been and will continue to be in my prayers. Ashleigh.

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