Thursday, August 11, 2011


I am pretty sure I have gotten over the initial sting of infertility. I mean, I still wish I wasn't in this situation, but right now I don't feel sad every day like I did before. I can handle hearing about pregnancies and seeing babies without having a mental breakdown or being insanely jealous. It took me a while, but I am finally there. Not saying I don't have my bad days, but they are few and far between!

The only time it does sting is when people take it for granted. And if I say anything about how blessed they are just to have a baby/be pregnant, then they proceed to tell me that I don't know what it is like to be in that situation and that I will feel the same when when I am.

Um, ouch! I would give anything to be in that situation. Some times if baffles me the things I have put my body through to be in that situation. Boatloads of bloodwork, ultrasound, MRI, x rays, SURGERY, drugs, spending every spare dollar on treatments, month after month of charting, money spent on OPKS. I have not done all that stuff so that I can gripe about everyday challenges with a baby.

It goes both ways. I may not know what it is like to be a mother, but most don't know what it is like to deal with infertility either.

So please, don't assume I will feel the same way as you. One of the benefits of infertility is that I will be able to find joy in the 40+ weeks of pregnancy, screaming babies, sleepless nights and blow out diapers that a lot of people take for granted.

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