Wednesday, January 17, 2007

I Hate Fights...

I am sooooo tired today and my head hurts. Last night Eric got home late and we had a little spat and I couldn't sleep for a long time. Sometimes I just get so upset and don't know how to calm down. I really hate it and I feel sorry for Eric because the poor guy doesn't know what to do. That is something I really struggle with is controling my anger. I just need to learn how to not let little stupid things bother me so much. I need to focus more on the positive things. If I could do that I wouldn't be angry so often. I also need to learn how not to take things out on Eric when it is not his fault. When I have a bad day at work I usally get upset with him for no reason. It is horrible. He is such a good husband and makes me so happy, I wish he could know that all the time. Please pray for me. Pray that our relationship can be centered more on God and that I will look to God to fulfill my needs, not always Eric because it is impossible for him to do it all.

1 comment:

Dayna said...

wow lindsey! so many new posts! iw as gonna read all of them and then just comment at the top, but i couldn't wait w/ this one... i am so proud of you. i find it's so hard to admit to myself when i need to work on something and you went a step further...

i WILL pray for you, and for Eric too...

everything that you wrote (especially about looking to God to fulfill your needs) reminded em fo that article laureen read at lois' shower. i don't have a husband, but i find myself doing that w/ friends and family sometimes or even within my work... so thanks for the reminder to find fulfillment in God...

i heard somewhere that a person needs to get to the point where God is enough... and then the rest (ie. husband, family, friends, etc.) become added blessings rather than a part of your fulfillment. i think looking at life from that perspective (when i remember!) helps me to live life more positively. then when someone lets me down, my whole world doesn't crash at my feet b/c i find my completeness in God

anyway this is getting long and i still ahve liek 3 more posts to read or something! lol.. i was checking your blog almost daily and was jsut waiting for a new post and now they come in a bang! it's nice to 'catch up'

i love you bonesaw!
always,
dayna

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