Sunday, April 10, 2011

Feelings

I just wrote a long post about how I am feeling lately. But it just seemed like a whole lot of whining so I erased it. Basically the gist of it was that infertility is making me feel alone, forgotten about, abandoned. I was feeling woe is me today, but I know that is not productive to feel that way. It was just really hard to shake that feeling today.

Right now I really miss having my private infertility blog. I thought I would be able to just say whatever I wanted on this one, once the truth was out about infertility. But I feel like I have to be way more careful about the feelings I share and the things I say. Feeling of infertiles are bizarre, and they may offend or hurt some people who don't understand so I hold back. I just really miss that openness.

Perhaps it is because I am nervous about my surgery on Tuesday that I am having all these feelings.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

thinking about you and your surgery... how you joined any online supports? there is actually one that is directly related to HL.

Jennifer said...

Praying for your upcoming surgery, Lindsey. May God continue to show you that you are not alone and that He is there for you.

Lindsey said...

Thanks for the prayers!

Anon- Do you have the link to that HL support?

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